Part Four · Letters between Andrew and H.W.L. Poonja

Part Four Letters between Andrew and H. W. L. Poonja September 17, 1986 Haridwar My own Self I have your letter dated 8th Sept. from Bangkok. Excellent! Excellent. Gone beyond. Wonderful description of the undescribable nonentity! I am back home. The Swami is here too and other Indians. I have found a man who would transmit Light to the suffering world. Love you, Alka, Murray. Will you write to me more and more about what never Happened? O my love I hug you, kiss you and what not. Your own Self H. W. L. Poonja October 6, 1986 Totnes, England Dear Master, Oh Master! So much power! Your wish is being fulfilled! I have been in England ten days now. I'm staying with Murray and Shanti. I have seen about ten people already and Master I am on FIRE! The teaching is coming through me in new ways all the time and the higher power is expressing itself creatively. The TRUTH is EVERNEW and SHINES BRIGHTLY MASTER through your own true SON & SELF. MASTER I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU. You are in me and your power is helping others. Your desire Master is mine for I have no choice for surrender is all I know. What is it Master? What is it that is doing all this? I have been seeing people everyday all day without a break and I find that the more work I do the stronger your power flows through me. I often feel carried away these days Master, drunk on the wine that is YOU and talking like a man drunk. My only wish is to intoxicate those around me forever-forever to be FREE and Happy Master-wanting only that they let the divine power manifest in them and be their own true SELF. This SELF KNOWLEDGE-to impart this-is my only mission. To make them aware only of their own true Natural State before creation even was a thought. The teaching Master is Only Love and the teacher is only Love. LOVE LOVE AND ONLY THAT in which there is NOTHING, Master, absolutely NOTHING AT ALL! Master I am DRUNK! You see Master my intention was to write to you and tell you all the details of my time here but my pen was also drunk and I write like a man gone Mad! We have been looking for a house and I hope to have one within one week. Alka and the others that were with me in India will come and stay with me. Already I have two letters from people in Holland who want to come and also a woman from Canada whom my mother spoke to will fly over to see me in a month. The news here in Totnes is traveling fast-Much, Much work to do. Murray has done much to prepare the way. He is doing well. I have decided not to go to my brother's wedding in Taiwan in December. The needs of many people are far more important than going to one man's wedding. When I get the house here I will have open Satsang every evening and see people individually during the day. I will plan to come back to India to see you when my work is done here-probably in about three months. PLEASE WRITE OFTEN.

Andrew October 19, 1986 Totnes, England Dear Master, I wrote a letter to you ten days ago. I hope that you have received it. Oh Master! Who could believe all this? Almost every day I have been seeing people privately during the day and every evening a group of people gather at Murray's house for Satsang with me in the evenings. So much so fast! I am amazed and at the same time, no matter what, I never feel that any of this has anything at all to do with me. It's like watching a fascinating movie. I remain always firmly rooted in my seat, never moving and somehow always distant and removed, while at the same time totally and fully present and AWARE. The power of the unknown for about four days in a row was indeed overwhelming this small mortal body. A few days ago I felt as if this body had become in some way like a generator-able to generate huge amounts of energy in response to the needs of those who come to me. The power of it is so strong at times that I felt if one were not somehow prepared for this, the nervous system would simply burn up due to overload. Oh Master! My Love for You is my life and it is ONLY UNCONDITIONAL SURRENDER that has made any of this possible. Surrender and only Surrender is the beginning, the middle and the end of this path and it is only this that I know. I love you Master. My relationship with you is the only relationship that I have. For ALL the others, it is only Your Love, THAT UNKNOWN, that is flowing from me to anyone who truly wants to BE FREE. Several people here are doing very well and one woman was Enlightened in her first talk with me! We have found a fantastic three bedroom house and are going to move into it on Oct. 24th. My mother also will come soon for six weeks. A woman who heard about me through my mother will fly here to see me next month. Three people from Holland are coming also. Next week a meditation teacher from London is coming for four days. It's strange Master but I get the feeling that some of the meditation teachers here are intimidated by me-why?? What has anybody got to lose? The power of the Silence during Satsang is overwhelming at times-and I invite anyone to ask any questions at all that they like. 4 Things are moving so fast here-It's unbelievable. We are taking the house for three months beginning Oct. 24th. Full pranam and all my Heart.

Andrew October 30, 1986 New Delhi My own Self, We returned from Haridwar. I have read your letters dated 6th and 19th Oct. '86 along with others. 4I have replied to all the letters only your letters remained to be replied but I took out twenty photostat copies of your letters and have sent them to people who could understand that which is beyond understanding, and have been working with me to comment on the above letters. I am very happy upon YOU. You are a Virtuous man, you stood on the mountain of merits to peep unto the Supreme Secrets of unknown, unheard of, Beauty, that remained untouched, unseen hitherto, has offered ITSELF to hug you and swallow the phenomenal mystery to reveal itself to ITSELF. O Andrew, my dear you have done it, every BE-ing will have Peace and Love and Light in your Presence. Did you keep the copy of the letters, if not may I send you the xerox copies of your letters dated 6th and 19th Oct. Please tell Alka or Orly or Orit to record every word that dropped from your lips spontaneously. H. W. L. Poonja November 14, 1986 Totnes, England Dear Master, I received your letter written on October 30th and I am humbled Master, deeply humbled. I have no words to express the wonder that is my permanent companion each and every day as I witness this explosion that is taking place around me. Oh Master! Who could believe all this is taking place? The power of what is going on here is too much for the rational mind to accept-and yet, myself and those near to me have no choice but to accept that which is beyond comprehension. Each evening after Satsanga is over and the people leave we sit around together in mutual awe of that which is occurring here. Master I know that you knew all this would take place-and so once again and forever Master I am only YOURS. My only relationship is with YOU-YOU and only YOU and in this relationship there is NONE for I am YOU and in this together we are NOT. There is NOTHING that separates us for you have absorbed me completely into YOURSELF. In THAT I am no more. There is only you and in YOU there is NO me and NO YOU but only NOTHING, EVERYTHING and in that Master Only the MYSTERY that is ALWAYS UNKNOWN. That alone is your true face and yet I can never see You clearly for how can the Self see the Self? It is impossible-the Self can only KNOW itself, that is ALL. I abide in YOUR HEART and that is my own SELF. From this HOME I never move but abide in the stillness that was forever untouched by the illusion of form and change. Forever I am your child and my innocence is my only security for that security lies only in NOT KNOWING. Three evenings ago I said to the group, "My home is the Heart and my refuge is NOT KNOWING." Master-what can I say to YOU? YOU who KNOWS ALL and is forever silent? What can I say for you know more about this mystery than I. Each day it unfolds yet again and I become quiet as I realize the immeasurable and unknowable silence that screams so loudly-it declares only It-SELF, and in THAT, all is destroyed. My Love to You forever My Love to You forever My Love to You forever MY LOVE is-YOU I am busy all the time seeing people and six nights a week we have Satsanga here in the evenings. More people are coming all the time and a lady arrived two days ago from Holland to spend time with me. We are living together here in a beautiful house in the country and our being together in this way is a living example of how human beings can live together in Love and Harmony. Murray has just moved in with us for one week. Several others also want to come and stay here for a few days or a week but there simply isn't room for all that. They come here often but want to be able to immerse themselves more in the Love and bliss that we are all sharing together. I will stay here till I am invited to go somewhere else. Whatever happens though I would like to come and spend a few weeks with you at the end of January or early February. Please write to me! Everyone sends their Love to You, especially Murray! Your own TRUE SON & SELF Andrew November 11, 1986 New Delhi My own dear SELF, I hug you and kiss your HEART! And Love my own Self like Narcissus. I have read your letters and have taken photostat copies and have dispatched to those who are really deserving to read something Beyond language and have read their reactions who give you a status of ancient Seers-Rishis of the Vedas or the Buddha reincarnated to once again help the suffering humanity! Write to me more and more about what happens before you. I want to speak unto you something which has never been said, why, Because I and You never exist, therefore we could speak between us. You have occupied my whole mind day and night, I do not know what Romance is being enacted by both Lovers to each other. With Love to you and all other members of my own Family. Love H. W. L. Poonja November 17, 1986 New Delhi Dear Andrew I am leaving India for U. S. A. early Jan. '87. You have not so far sent any copy of your students' letters. I want to know how they all understand you, or simply they waste your time. Your time is much more precious and need not be wasted to speak to the unworthy egoistic people of this planet. I have to uncover more sacred secrets to you, when and where I can't say. I told you, you go and teach we will meet later. If my visit to the U. S. A. materializes we can get together on the American soil, to prove any land is good and worthy to impart knowledge from competent teacher to a worthy student. I am happy to read your letters and I must hand over my robe to you. Transmit peace and happiness to all beings of this planet, postpone your own Nirvana. Talk not about the Truth Think not about the Truth When No thoughts arise You are, what you ARE H. W. L. Poonja January 3, 1987 Totnes, England Dear MASTER, My FATHER, My SELF, This morning your last letter from India arrived. In this letter I am enclosing some letters from my students to you, describing their experiences with me. I sent some also to Haridwar one month ago, I hope that you will receive it eventually in New York. I am planning to leave England for New York to come and see you with Alka around January 25th. Here more and more people are coming all the time. Every evening between twenty-five and forty-five people come for Satsanga. During the day I see people individually. Even though I could easily stay here in England for another three months and remain busy, I feel the call to leave this place, to move on, for a change. I will return here after two months in Holland. Master! My mind reels at all that is taking place around me here. My God, FATHER, you knew all this would happen I know, but so fast, so fast?! This is indeed a difficult life FATHER that I have been chosen for. At times the strain of the power of Maya in the minds of those who come to me disturbs me. At times the thought of great numbers of people coming to me makes me want to run away and hide; to be quiet and alone with only a few who could really give their lives to this JEWEL that you have given me. But then when I see the light and Love that is being realized through YOUR GRACE in those who come to me, it makes it all worth it and I have no doubt for I know I have no choice. My life is no longer my own. It is now only yours MASTER and in that, my Love is only Your own. I have been learning so much about this mystery FATHER, there is much that I want to share with you, MYSELF who understands so much more than me. I know NOTHING MASTER, NOTHING AT ALL, and it is only the ignorance in those who come to me that creates the illusion that I know something. It is only darkness that makes light visible, but to the light itself, there is only light and NOTHING ELSE. When there is ONLY LIGHT, to whom could darkness exist? In Light there is no darkness and no light, Nothing at all, and THAT cannot be known by a mind that still perceives opposites of any kind. Light only exists for those who live in darkness, but to those to whom there is no darkness there is no light either. There is only NOTHING AT ALL in which EVERYTHING is known. I look forward to seeing your physical body with anticipation and joy-with the clear understanding that we could never be apart Father, for we never really met each other, we never could have. We have never been separate beloved FATHER, but with that clear understanding, I still shake with Love at the illusion of your face and body. This illusion will never die MASTER, until I die physically. Until that time your body is a Temple to me MASTER, and your Love is that into which I have died, leaving no trace.

Your own true son, Andrew March 4, 1987 Hawaii Dear Andrew, . . . You will give me the details of how you have presented the no teaching to Enlighten the people by no way whatsoever. If you can't write ask someone to do it. I send you my Love, and Love to everyone who is around you. Your own Self H. W. L. Poonja April 9, 1987 Amsterdam Dear Master, Father, the Mystery continues to unfold timelessly in time, always unknown yet recognized and beheld in endless humility and wonder. Your Grace and Love is daily being showered upon all those who come to me. The effect is staggering for all, as who could ever imagine this Unknown, Unthinkable beauty to be shining so brightly Master here in Europe through your own true son? He cannot imagine it. He accepts it for he has no choice, for his life is now and forever only YOUR own. YOUR will is his will and YOUR Love his Love. He Loves You so dearly that all else has vanished from his memory. He loves only YOU, only YOU only YOU-and in YOU he has lost this world and the universe in which it exists. His world is no world and his face is only your NO FACE where this universe never was and where there is no beginning that needs to be understood. Lost forever in Your Arms Master he is Unborn and therefore has realized NOTHING that can be remembered. In Nothing he is Safe, for in THAT NO-THING there was never anyone to be caught, bound or confused. No confusion in NO memory is Unthought, Unimagined LOVE BLISS that never ever realized anything other than ITSELF. Here for only six weeks Master and so much work being done! Something seems to have happened to your son while sitting at your feet in New York. All the people coming from England have told me that there is a change in me since I have seen You. It must be so, for my effect on those around me here is more powerful than before. OH Master-what have You done?! Whatever happens Father from now on-I feel safe in NOT KNOWING. I feel protected in a sense by my own innocence. I know I am not the doer in spite of the way it seems and in that I am safe. I am only Your Servant and in that service I know only You. In You I am not and if I am not-there is TRUE FREEDOM and LOVE. UNKNOWN LOVE belongs to NO ONE and LOVES only ITSELF. In that LOVE-how could anyone do anything for any other? My life here goes on much the same as it did in England. We are living together in a very pleasant apartment. I see people privately during the day and every evening we hold Satsang at an apartment that belongs to one of my students. A steady stream of people from England have been coming and going since my arrival here and about five are staying here in Amsterdam as long as I will be here. The Dutch people have been slow to recognize the truly unheard of nature of what is taking place here. There is a small but growing group of them that are now very much in love with this Beauty that has no history. I plan to stay here in Amsterdam for another four to six weeks and then we are thinking of going to Israel for one month after which we will return to England. Master like yourself I don't like to be pinned down to fixed plans and very much prefer to leave future plans open. This addiction to not being pinned down I have caught from you no doubt. Please write to me Father and let me know how you are and about all that is happening. I think of you always-for you are all that I AM.

Your own true son, Andrew May 13, 1987 Haridwar My dear LOVE, Your Love letter passed from hand to hand and finally came to me on the Buddha Purnima day. The day of the Enlightened ONE 2600 years ago. "Buddham saranam gacchami, Buddham saranam gacchami, Buddham saranam gacchami." He is my first teacher at the age of eight years when I lifted in Love with HIM who taught me meditation on emptiness. 4How Happy I AM to see every one Loves you. Everyone who loves you directly loves me. All those who come and Surrender to you will instantly win FREEDOM. Love to you. I Love you as I love myself and this my Self is NONSELF. H. W. L. Poonja September 25, 1987 Totnes, England Dear Beloved Father, It's now over five weeks since I left you in Delhi and Father so much has been happening! All this is surely a dream, an unimaginable miracle that never ends! My Father-You are my Beloved SELF. You are always MYSELF and how you have completely taken me in Your Arms and are Loving me so! Father this MYSTERY never ceases to unfold before me. Your son has become so possessed by this Mystery that is your UNKNOWN FACE that he knows not any longer who he is! He knows only who he imagined himself to be once, a long time ago before the illusion of Andrew had vanished like a mist before YOU. What has never happened between us Unknown FATHER is so precious and Beautiful totally beyond the mind's eye to imagine! I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU! Indeed you have possessed me to such a degree Father-More and More I am melting and dissolving, dying endlessly into Your Unknown LOVE and TRUTH. Dying Endlessly, Dying endlessly in YOU is all I AM! There indeed is a change in your son, Father, since he was near you in Haridwar five weeks ago. You are indeed a Master my Father for at your feet yet again you managed to continue to destroy the last little bits of fear and attachment that I brought to You. When I was with you I could not understand what you were doing with me-why you were keeping me at a distance. Immediately after I left you-at the airport I understood immediately what had happened and why you had to do it. I realized how I had still been depending on you and how in order for me to be able to serve others perfectly I had to be able to stand completely and unconditionally ALONE. You very skillfully cut away my last dependence and the fear that was in its wake. When I left You I realized as never before that this unimaginable Jewel that You have bestowed upon me I must carry ALONE and FREE. Free from all fear and attachment and free from any traces of doubt about my own intuition and surrender. Father I am humbled beyond my words. I stand ALONE as you have shown me that I must. There is no longer any desire in me to turn in ANY direction for help. You have given me Everything and You are always MYSELF that NEVER LEAVES ME ALONE. YOU ARE MYSELF FOREVER MASTER. YOUR FACE IS MY OWN and I bow before you in silent AWE of your ENDLESS GRACE and INFINITE LOVE. YOU are LOVING ME ALWAYS. YOU NEVER LEAVE ME YOU NEVER LEAVE ME MY LOVE MY LOVE MASTER MASTER! And so my Father all that you have said would take place before me is happening. On my return from India I spent one week in Amsterdam before returning to England. Every evening that week in Amsterdam the Satsang room was overflowing and two people even came from America to see me for that week. I came back to England on September 4th and Satsang started here again in Devon on September 7th. I am very busy with the work continuously Father. Every evening there is Satsang and between seventy and eighty people are coming. People have gathered here just to be near me and there are several groups of people that have rented houses to stay together during my stay here. I also see people privately every afternoon. I am not busy with this work Father, but indeed this work is busy with me! Endlessly absorbed in Your Unknown face I am always learning and discovering more about this MYSTERY Father. Every day it is New and I am overwhelmed each day again and again by the endless depth that is being revealed to me. MASTER YOUR GRACE IS UNIMAGINABLE. The more work that is taking place Father the more I am learning about this dangerous enemy that MAYA is for so many. The more I teach I am discovering that indeed it is only a rare few who have been born with the rare qualities that give them the strength and innocence with which to fight her powers of deception! Father what a play this life is! What a dance, what a mystery! Recently several well-known western meditation teachers came to visit me and yet again I was shocked by how little they know about this Mystery that you have revealed to me my Father. They did not have any idea of this unknown secret that you have bestowed upon me. Many are talking about me and the news is traveling in All directions. My MASTER your wishes are coming true and you are gaining many Grandchildren FATHER! I plan to stay here in England for about two and a half more months. A man who came from America to see me in Amsterdam said he would plan a trip for me in America if I wished. When he said this I smiled to myself seeing once again how all your wishes were being fulfilled! How all you have said would happen is happening! All my love to All those who are gathered around you FATHER.

Andrew October 30, 1987 Lucknow, India Dear Andrew, Long ago I had received your letter dated 25th September. Many an attempt had been made to reply this only letter remained unreplied among 100 odd letters that have been received and you know my habit of quick responses to every letter by myself. I very much liked to reply back the letter from my only SON but my mind doesn't count you like others who will be satisfied by my Ink and Paper and words. You have so mischievously invaded unto my BE-ing that now I don't discriminate the separate identity of BEingness of even BE-ing. Never mind-all is going on Beautifully and I am Happy. All the Love Your own Self H. W. L. Poonja April 13, 1988 Amherst, Massachusetts Beloved Holy Father, There is absolutely no doubt that a true revolution in consciousness is exploding here in the west around your own true son. The speed and power of this explosion is impossible for the mind to comprehend. Father it is only now that the true magnitude of this historic event is beginning to dawn on me! Oh Master! TRUTH is such a RARE JEWEL in this barren world! Master what has happened between us has started a raging fire-all of my students are burning with this fire of Love and Truth. A revolution has truly begun! I am speechless before you-all of this you knew from the beginning! Oh Master, who could ever believe that such a Holy fire could rage in the Hearts of so many? My Father the unknown Love is consuming many, many people and all have only one desire-to stay together and abide as one in this Unknown mystery where all appearances dissolve. I arrived here in America on the 7th of March and have been holding Satsanga each evening for about one month now. The word is spreading fast. Some have come from places like California, Washington and Canada to see me. At the beginning of May, my students from Europe will begin to arrive. I expect over a hundred people to come from Europe over the coming summer months. Many are planning to stay for six months-even those who have families are coming with their children. The supreme power, Your Will, has consumed your son totally Father. He teaches and preaches only one thing-"ENLIGHTENMENT, ENLIGHTENMENT, ENLIGHTENMENT HERE AND NOW." Nothing else Father nothing else. Only absolute Freedom from the known, Freedom from time and all the creations of a fictitious mind and ego.

My each breath is only YOU and YOU and YOU! During the last two months and increasing in intensity over the last ten days I have been aware of the fact that I am dying more and more. As my name and fame continue to grow I feel more and more distant. The knowledge of who I am and what I am doing becomes less and less clear. I feel with each passing day that I am becoming more transparent and more distant. I feel less and less connected to this world Father-I feel that I am looking at this existence from a place that is far, far away. This detachment, this distance is growing as my fame grows. The more famous the teacher becomes, the smaller Andrew grows. The more Andrew is known, the less Andrew knows. A strange life this is Father! What an unthinkable destiny you have given me! Father I love you infinitely and abide only with you and in you. My Love for you is my only reference point. It is you alone whom I am with on this journey and it is to your feet alone that I cling. All else is UNREAL. Your Servant, Andrew P. S. I am living in a wonderful big house in the country with Alka and five others. I will send you pictures.

May 6, 1988 Haridwar Dear Andrew, Your letter dated April 13th had been received a few days ago. All other letters that I received day after day had been instantly cleared save your letter. Each day I attempted to write but no words poured down from my memory to scribe on the paper. This is because of too much nearness as if Self addressing the SELF. You are seated at the SOURCE, from where the sound emerges to become a word. I am very Happy to learn what is going on and most Happy to see who is at the back of all this phenomenon keeping still and unconcerned. You will yet be surprised what is in store. Andrew + ME will witness this Drama in a near future. With Love to you, dear Alka and all others, H. W. L. Poonja August 18, 1988 Amherst, Massachusetts Dear Beloved Father, I am thinking of You and talking to You everyday my most Beloved Father. I am talking to you about this MYSTERY in which you have drowned me. In the past few weeks I have felt this dialogue going on between us, even though I cannot understand the language in which we are speaking! MY Father I love You so! YOU are my Passion, My own Heart. Your Kiss killed me with its unbearable sweetness and your loving embrace holds me safe and free, secure in your arms. All of THAT which is unfolding around your own true son is without a doubt absolutely KNOWN by Father and son. There is no mistake, no accident and no doubt. This FACT simply IS. My Infinite Father this unbearable Holiness is the most powerful weapon in the universe. It is unstoppable. This FACT is unavoidable. In light of this truth-ALL MUST BE DESTROYED. It has become clear to me that my one and only mission is to destroy absolutely. This LOVE that you have given me is my sword. You have sent me away from You with this one instruction and it is this FACT that has been revealing itself to me again and again and again. This responsibility is unbearable for the mind to even consider, but there is NO CHOICE. Having NO CHOICE I must ACT.

At this time, many people are coming each evening for Satsanga. About one hundred are here from Europe. Three quarters of the people are giving up everything to follow me. I have not asked them to do so. They are all feeling compelled to follow me. I realize that is my one and only duty to my Master that I must most perfectly NOT RESIST this explosion and simply allow this unthinkable Holy Drama to unfold as it will. I prostrate to YOU my Father again and again and again. We are moving to Boston at the end of this month and I plan to stay there for about four months. By this time people have heard about me all over America. Within six months or one year I cannot imagine what will be happening. This message, this Teaching, this SECRET has been lost in TIME and is now being revealed to all those who would be willing to accept it here and now. OH MASTER IT'S ALL TOO MUCH TO BEAR AND YET THERE IS NOTHING ELSE TO DO-

Your own True son, Andrew January 8, 1989 Cambridge, Massachusetts Dear Beloved Father, After leaving India on November 18th, Alka and I flew to England where we spent ten days. My students there organized one week of Satsang to be held for seven consecutive evenings. Over two hundred people came, many from different parts of Europe. The photos I have sent you are from this week. We arrived back in Boston at the end of November. The last month has been very busy with Satsang five nights a week and a lot of work being done on the two books that I told you about when I was with you in Lucknow. The first book will consist mainly of the diary that I kept during my initial meeting with you in 1986 and will also include the letters that we have written to each other over the past two and a half years. We are writing an outline to the story of our meeting and of how the teaching began in Rishikesh spontaneously through your Grace. The Mystery of YOUR GRACE Father, is really what this book will be about. Also through our correspondence it shows in a very rare way the Unbearable LOVE between Father and son. The meaning of SURRENDER and of LOVE for the MASTER.

The second book will consist of transcriptions from the evening Satsangs and copies of letters I have received from my students describing their experiences. 4This is what we are working on now. It is fantastic Father because it was you who told me that I would write a book-You told me this after you had a dream about it over one and a half years ago! What is happening around me, my Father, through YOUR GRACE-is too fantastic and too beautiful for words. A real SANGHA is growing around me and many of my students are catching my FIRE. There are now twenty houses here in Cambridge where my students are living together. Many have come from Europe and are staying for long periods. This decision to live together and come together to be near me has happened quite spontaneously and naturally. I have not told anyone to do so, but this is their wish. As this has been happening steadily by itself over the last year and a half, a real Sangha is being born. The teaching is ENLIGHTENMENT and the teacher speaks of nothing else. The living understanding of this living truth is being lived by many of my students, and it is only through YOUR GRACE that this is happening. As each day passes Father I feel my strength and confidence growing stronger and stronger. You told me how truly rare this event is, but it has taken two years for me to understand what you were saying. I could not believe you as it simply seemed too much to believe. But now Father, I not only believe but I KNOW it's true. And this fact is unbearable and terrifying. But I am not terrified Father. Simply I know, and in this I am at Rest. That which cannot be borne is borne and there is no conflict and no fear. It is all only your Love and GRACE and I simply am not interfering with what feels pre-planned and perfect. Oh my Father with each day my recognition of the mission you have given me deepens and with it I feel more and more fire and zeal which is my fuel. The desire that "this living truth must be known" burns within me Father and yet I know fully well that this is not my desire at all but your own. Because the real mystery of it all is that as my fire increases and confidence grows, my own sense of Freedom and detachment also increases. This really means that as I become more sure, I simultaneously know less about what I am doing or how I am doing it. What a Mystery Father. Who are You who is the source and cause of all this? Who are You, my Master? It is my Love and surrender to You alone, You who does not exist that I survive. On my knees before You Father,

Your Servant and True Son, Andrew February 1, 1989 Lucknow Very dearly dear Son, Received your loving letter each word entered my bones and shakes up my body So Happy I always feel whenever I receive news about you and hear from people who come to see me. Some of them have heard of you, even as far as far east and even entire Europe and Latin America. They will go to Cambridge to see you. What is going on around you is a miracle. You are a gifted person. All my 75 years I could get a serious, sincere, dedicated, obedient disciple who moved so close to my Heart Soul and body. Whenever I move I feel I speak through your mouth and live in your body. My Love to you. All my children live happy and peaceful life. H. W. L. Poonja March 25, 1989 Cambridge, Massachusetts Beloved Father, Today is our anniversary. Three years ago I met you. I can never thank you for the infinite grace you have bestowed upon me. You have set me Free. Andrew died when he met you. He who lives in his name is now only your reflection. I love you and thank you endlessly. Andrew Addendum The extraordinary love story recounted in this book was the end of seeking for Andrew Cohen. But time would reveal that it was only the beginning of his recognition of the meaning and significance of Enlightenment. The bond between these two unusual people eventually fell apart. The issues that led to the dissolution of their relationship are many and complex. The very nature of spiritual awakening was brought into question through a painful unfolding of a conflict that revealed the entire panorama of important questions that need to be addressed by any individual who sincerely wants to be free in this life. The story is told in Andrew's later work Autobiography of an Awakening. Largely as a result of the original publication of this work, H. W. L. Poonja became within two years one of the most sought-after gurus in India. Andrew's following gradually grew into a worldwide community of students with centers in the United States, England, Holland, Germany and Israel. Since the original publication of this book, his teaching has continued to evolve in dramatic ways and has over time become an original expression of a complete teaching that embraces both heaven and earth. He has recently published his fourth book An Unconditional Relationship to Life. Glossary Karma: Law of cause and effect. Maya: Illusion, the way things appear to be. Nirvana: The bliss of the Realization of Liberation. Pranam: Greeting showing deep respect. Rishi: Sage or wise man. Ramana Maharshi (1879-1950): Renowned and venerated spiritual Teacher who lived in South India. Satguru: Spiritual Teacher who is at one with Truth or SELF. Samadhi: The joy of Self Knowledge. Samsara: The illusion of separate existence. Sangha: Spiritual community. Satsang(a): Association with Truth, being in the presence of a Satguru. Vedas: Hindu Scriptures. I would like to thank Bradley Roth and Amy Edelstein for all their help in compiling and editing the manuscript. I would also like to thank Judy Fox for her assistance in the production of this book.

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