Italie 2012-06_Avoir confiance et reposer dans Zéro

this is very subtle there's a level of humility that you have we all have to bring to this it includes me for me to be able to teach you in the way that i'm teaching there's a level of humility i have to bring to my own teaching function and there's also a level of trust and and i've and all my long retreats i speak about it's a trust in what you can't see it's trust in what the mind can't see what the mind can't know so so the contemplation of zero right you can say contemplation of zero but contemplation of zero is equals trusting in something you can't understand and you can't see and the mind's never gonna know and staying focused on that and you you have to you have to get to the point where you're trusting in that so all of this and this includes me this is this applies directly to me and to enable me to be able to teach you in the way that i'm teaching you if you feel that my teaching is powerful and profound and uh and real and spontaneous and real it's because of my ability to abide in this zero point that's what makes it possible for me to teach this way otherwise i would give you be giving you canned what i'd be giving you is can teaching which is you know it's it's more or less prepared even if it's good uh and it's just the same old thing and i'm not teaching that way i have students here that have known me for 25 years and they're on the edge of their seat now if i can keep people on the edge of their seat after 25 years i must be doing something right you follow what is he going to say next if it's 26 25 or 26 late years laters and i can do that it means something that i'm on to something now the reason i can do that is because of this zero point that i'm asking you to look into i'm doing it myself so all of this so if you find yourself having trouble experiencing some frustration and then starting to try and figure it out yourself don't do it you can't figure this out you just you'll never be able to figure it out i can't figure it out the only reason i can teach you in this way is because i trust in what i can't see and what i don't know so because i trust and what i can't see and what i don't know i can teach you in this way i know it looks that i you know i've prepared all this i haven't prepared any of this but because i trust because of my trust in what i can see and what i don't know that which is which which means contemplation of zero i can teach this way so there is no other way to get there so if you if you feel if you're having some frustration it doesn't matter it is frustrating it can be frustrating but even the frustration itself is totally irrelevant it doesn't make any difference it you mustn't let it be a problem but the contemplation of zero is the contemplation of zero it's not the contemplation of right method wrong method i did it right yesterday i'm doing it wrong today that's all just mind garbage you understand it's un it's endless beginningless and endless mind garbage it has nothing to do with anything important in the in this particular context of approaching trying to understand non-duality it doesn't matter it's all just subterfuge you follow so we're going from you know just like i'm saying you're going from the ego to the soul to this to this deepest dimension where the where the mind is gone so the only way to the only way to do it is zero or nothing whatsoever or no relationship has to become your constant reference point now when you're being introduced to zero or no or zero or no relationship it it feels very technical even even though it's not but when you become familiar with zero or no reference point you just relax right into it that's it you just you relax into not knowing anything it becomes very easy very natural very spontaneous and you're not worried you're just not worried because you just relax into not knowing anything that becomes just an easy very familiar reference point it's yours that's your seat you follow you're not struggling with it anymore and even if you do struggle with it doesn't it that doesn't matter anyway none of it matters you see everything becomes irrelevant and that's the thing that nobody wants to get that everything becomes irrelevant in light of this because remember i'm oh i make i'm i'm intellect i'm philosophically intellectually making very clear distinctions that i think many of you miss so when you go from relative to not from a relative to a non-relative absolute you're you're you're entering into there's a different dimensions that that at a deepest level there's no relationship between the two and that's what we can't get because we're used to thinking in linear of linear progressive development but we're talking about a leap here there's a quantum leap from there's a quantum leap from one dimension to another so there's literally no connection between one world in this case and the way i'm describing and another so if you if you allow your mind to convince you that it knows about this other world there's other realms of the dimension you just you're just wasting time it doesn't know you just you don't have to stop with your mind you just stop listening because it has it's completely irrelevant it doesn't make any difference and if your mind wants to go on a little journey there it doesn't you can let it go because it's irrelevant and i don't i i can't repeat this until the day i drop that but i mean that's it's you're just wasting time it doesn't it really makes whatever your mind says about it it doesn't matter you're doing very good today you're very very bad today this is right this is this is right this is wrong it's all just my garbage it's completely unrelated to that kind of depth there's no connection to that kind of depth there's no meeting point there's no place where there's no connection you see do you understand that there's no connection between your mental world and this non-dual emptiness there is no connection between your mental world and the non-dual emptiness there's no connection between your mental world and nondual emptiness so just forget it so there you so see the thing is once you understand this you don't have to worry about your mind anymore in the same way because it's just your stupid mind blah blah blah it doesn't mean just mind garbage it doesn't matter so it makes it easy to meditate then it's easy to meditate and if the meditation is easy that's fine and if it's difficult it's fine too because that doesn't make any difference even if your mind's wandering even if your mind is busy even if your mind is frustrated that doesn't matter anyway because it can't touch the non-dual ground of emptiness itself it can't touch it so even if your surface personality is suffering a little bit because your mind is busy that doesn't matter either do you get it it really doesn't make any difference if you make it'll make a difference to you if you choose in your ignorance to make a problem out of it so if you make a problem out of it then you will suffer doesn't that seem like a stupid thing to do yes i know this is difficult and i know it's very subtle i know it's hard to get you know but it is what it is did you get the point i'm making huh it should be very liberating if you really get it huh i'm trying to make your life easy i'm trying to make it easier for you so from a certain point of view it really doesn't matter what your experience is if you follow can you handle that can your ego handle that it doesn't make it matter what your experience is the ego finds that really hard to handle what does that mean it doesn't people say oh well if i'm gonna have a meditation experience it should be peaceful it should be blissful it should be obviously well maybe but maybe not you know are you a peaceful blissful person so you're probably not a peaceful blissful person so if you bring to me all of your chaos and all of your insecurity and all of your resentment and all of your longing and all all these things which all of you do in one way or the other brain and that is all going on just because you decide to have no relationship to the content of consciousness doesn't mean that all that chaos is just going to take a hike you understand that so at the beginning the experiences of peace and joy and quietness and bliss and ecstasy you know they they convince you of something about these of these deeper dimensions but you have to get to a point eventually when that doesn't even that doesn't even matter what your mind is doing does not matter because it has no effect it can't have any effect therefore it's irrelevant so the maturity in this would be if you realize that it doesn't make any difference right then you can then you can sit very easily