Audrey Kitagawa at the Parliament of the World's Religions

where did your spiritual passion come from cuz you have a lot of it oh thank you my spiritual mother your spiritual mother who is we call her Divine mother uh but she passed away in 1992 but before she left her body she asked me to carry on for her is there she anybody that we might have heard of or what's her name we call her her uh name is FL Nomi but we called her Divine mother so she was born and raised in Honolulu and she was just the most incredibly beautiful beautiful person I've ever met and she was just so radiant and so beautiful so compelling I used to stare at her all the time and i' walk into her home and I'd say oh Divi mother you're so beautiful she just had this Radiance about her but outwardly I mean she's just a cute little Japanese lady and she was not educated but when I met her I just graduated from college and I was on my way to law school and she was the last person I met before I boarded the airplane to go to law school mhm and in um Massachusetts Boston so anyway um I was on my way to law school and this friend of mine said I know you're a sincere Seeker after God so you must meet this lady so she says here's her phone number give her a call so I gave her a call and she gave me directions on how to get to her house and I went to her home she opened the door she was a cute little Japanese lady and she sat down and she spoke very rapidly non-stop for 5 hours and she told me the beginning and the end of herself except she left one thing out but I didn't know she was leaving one thing out and I found found out when I found that one thing then it was like you know she it was like a confirmation for her and of course I had no idea she'd left this one thing out but I found it on my own which is which is I found true ramak Krishna she never said a word about Shir Krishna never mentioned him at all so but anyway I had you know it started I just fell in love with her I just fell in love with her and I took down her address and I just started this correspondence with her and around when I found uh Shri Krishna it was just I came home from law school one day and I was just really down and so I open picked up the Yellow Pages of the phone book and I opened it up to churches and I just ran my finger down the column it just stopped at the ramach Krishna bant Society so I picked up the phone and I called and this man with a heavy Indian accent you you know answered the phone and I said hi are you open and he said no we're not open I said well can I come over anyway and he said well I'm on my way to MIT but I will wait for you so he gave me instructions on how to get there on the green line so I caught the trolley and I went down there and it was the Swami sand but anyway he welcomed me in and he told me about Shir Krishna and I just just knew I said this I found my shoes so when you came in he sat down and told you yes and it's like he never had to go to MIT at all he too spent so much time with me and shared about shamak Krishna and Swami Viva Cananda and all that and I just felt wow and so I I just couldn't wait to read everything about shamama Krishna bought the books and everything and you know so anyway I just couldn't wait to tell my spiritual mother I didn't call her my spiritual mother then I just called her flora and I said dear Flora I'm so excited I finally found my chosen ideal in Shir ramak Krishna and then she wrote back to me and started telling me in her letters all about shirama Krishna said how could she possibly know about shama Krishna because one of the things that she told me was that she had no education she only had an eighth grade education so I said now how would she know about TR Krishna I said I studied religion I never heard about so now she was imparting to me about shma Krishna she was so Overjoyed that I had found him and that's the one thing she didn't tell me so anyway uh after I had told her that I found shamma Krishna it was around Christmas time my first year of law school and she wrote me this card and she it was a Christmas card and she said dear Audrey you are my spiritual child how I love you she said tears of joy flow and you know when I read that I just started to cry because I felt as if that was so true I was her spiritual child she was my spiritual mother so that was my journey began my journey with the Divine mother and I every opportunity I had to return from law school even if it was like Christmas time or summer time time you know I do everything I could to be with her and you know then I returned back to Honolulu opened up my law practice and had 20 wonderful years with her oh but it was always so loving so filled with such kindness and she never scolded me I don't know why such a bad person maybe she thought it was too fragile but she never scolded me but one of she just just by being with her many of my bad habits just seem to kind of straighten out like I used to be chronically late chronically late you know always tardy and she was so punctual and she never wanted to keep anybody waiting never wanted to uh you know be unmindful of other people's time so when people you know wanted to take her out she'd wait outside before the appointed time of the pickup so they wouldn't have to park the car and go and call on her she was always so punctual and when I saw how how much love there was in that how much consideration and respect for the other that she had that straightened me out and I became very punctual except for tonight yeah we going to bring have some bad habits did she have other other students also or yes because she gave the most powerful spontaneous expositions on the Divine that you ever have the privilege to hear and that's all she did was talk about God God God God God all the time but I've had the most fascinating experiences with her and of course you know when I was practicing law some I remember this one person particular case I was so stressed out about because I had to go against this judge I wanted to recuse him which is something you never do but anyway I thought he was really mishandling the case and so you know I just had this stress that was like locking my neck and I couldn't move my neck and it felt like huge thick steel band around my neck and I couldn't it was immobilized on me so I went to see her and I said oh do you like mother I just started to pour out my heart about this case and she said I'm glad told me she wouldn't like that and this thing just fell off my neck I just couldn't believe it like this thig band just fell off my neck and then I could move my she says whatever you have to do go ahead and do it she says don't worry everything is in God's hands and so it was like my mind was free and of course I did what I had to do ultimately everything you know did work out but uh I I've also had really tremendous mystical experiences with her like I remember one day I was really really sick and I just said okay that's it I have to go home so I left my law office and I just had barely enough energy to crawl in the car and drive home and when I got home I opened the door and I just closed the door and I just fell on the floor in my living room I couldn't even make it to the bed and I was just lying there very very ill and then she just appeared in This brilliant light and she was so incredibly beautiful and I looked at her and said oh Divine mother I'm sorry I'm not feeling well I can't get up to greet you and so she came to me and she knelt down and she put her arm under my head and then she placed her chest on my chest and from her heart to my heart it was this beautiful soft infusion of light going puff puff puff and I was filled with so much love and I just felt so nurtured and then she stood up and she said now Audrey remember everything I've ever taught you and then she did this recapitulation from alpha to Omega with microc seconds and just wrapped it all up and then she put it in a capsule and shot it into my chest crash and then she disappeared and I was in ly well I felt so energized and I just stood up and I was so grateful and I said wow that was such an incredible experience where were you when that happened in Honolulu so I hopped in my car drove to her home to thank her and there she was sitting down waiting for me and I said oh Divine mother thank you that was such an incredible experience she said you're welcome that's one wow is she still alive no she passed away in 1992 and that too was just an incredible experience because she never looked more beautiful than the last week she was leaving her body I mean she never wore makeup she's very simple but it looked as if she had Rouge and lipstick and she just had this beautiful suntan she was just literally this golden color and glowing and uh you know she was just she looked so healthy and she was leaving her body with cancer but she looked really really healthy and so vibrant and she had us some stitches and me were laughing and because she said I'm always one with you and she says she doesn't want us to cry she said I'm closer to you than ever and so she had us in this really buoyant joyous State and to the very end she was always in imparting lessons to us like she always used to say the diamond and the dirt are the same and so in the end she could just take little chips of ice and she'd say you see the diamond is worthless to me but the Ice is very important see so she was constantly telling us things like that and then she'd always take us beyond the body so she people would come constant stream of people would be coming to say goodbye and and she'd say well you see I'm leaving the body you can tell my legs are turning black and so she asked us to take off the blanket so people could see her black legs and then you know you could see that uh her skin was turning literally black getting black and then we cover her up and then the next person would come she says you see I'm leaving the body because my legs are turning black so she say take off the blanket so they can see and then her legs would be totally pink and they be you know this beautiful color so healthy looking what happened to the black they just disappear like that so she was always telling us you know the the senses are the least reliable indicator truth absolutely so are you are you her you're her successor yes and and so all so the whole family recognizes you as her as her successor yes so you're so you're more or less their teacher their Guru or that kind of thing or yes but I don't call myself that but that's what you uhhuh is that what they call you or is that how they regard you I have them call me Audrey but they refuse to call me Audrey Guru right so when divide mother chose me to carry on her works I practiced law for four more years then one night I Was preparing for trial at my desk and all of a sudden the law diploma just fell off the wall it just dropped the glass didn't crack it stayed intact but it fell off the wall it just dropped to the floor and I said to myself the time is near and within 2 weeks I closed my locks because was this in h little mhm because I was left with the knowing even though I didn't know when it would happen that when the time came I would be absolutely clear that it was the time to leave and then it was true I just knew and I closed everything up so then now I do a gift of service at the UN because the UN is one of the places that the Divine messenger told Divine mother that the light had to go to MH and so before I went to New York I went into this 40-day Retreat into complete silence so I totally cut the senses just by myself and no reading no TV no radio and no eating just water and constant prayer and meditation for 40 days and it was very clear then that I had to go to New York so I went to New York and I also just knew that I would go be at the UN somehow and then now I'm at the but I didn't have to apply the the opportunity just came so olara otuna who heads our office I'm sorry olara otuna who heads our office and I met and uh you know he asked if I would help and I said okay and there I am so but wherever I go I try to raise the uh you know issue of children affected by armed conflict and show the status of children in general and then when I give talks strictly about the US I always bring in the spiritual element so the kind of you know so I'm doing a gift of service there